“You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went, you can curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go."

i watched benjamin button last night and it made me realize something.

at the end it says that some people are born to be artists, some people are born to dance, some people are born to swim, and i aksed myself, "what was i born for?"

and as if i was waiting for someone, even if it was just myself, to aks only so that i could answer it without thought; it came to me.

I was born to love. to be in love.

i enjoy nothing more than devoting myself to someone. and it explains why i hold my heart in my sleeve. i am a lover.

and every love has been more powerful, and deep and passionate than the one before; and from each i learn. 

so i can't wait for the time when i've learned all my lessons, and can love someone like i've never loved anyone before without somehow doing too much, or too little. and that love will be eternal.

i can't stand being single, although i am never alone.  was made to love and when i'm like this it is as a pair of scissors being used for everything but cutting. even in times like these i hold on to past loves and let nostalgia become my love, so i can feel like i'm not wasting my feelings.

it is definitely time to dedicate my efforts to something more fruitful. perhaps.

can't wait to fall in love again.