but let's love

i suppose the best way to start a blog which you don't know how to start is by stating that you don't know how to start it.
i don't really know how to start this.

whenever i am asked about my religious beliefs, i don't know what to say. usually i answer with "i don't have any" and then people assume i am an atheist.
that doesn't quite describe it. Atheism is a negation of the existence of god.
i do not negate it. i do not confirm it.
some may say that i'm staying in this horrible, cowardly middle point but that's not the truth.
i don't care whether god exists or not.

knowing whether a singularity decided to infinitely expand, or a being said "let there be light;" that never helped me get any friends.
knowing whether i was created on monday or developed from a single cell organism in the span of millions of years; that never helped me love anyone unconditionally.
knowing whether it was jesus, ala, buddha, or amaterasu, that never gave me or the people around me a hug or company.

i could spend my time loving a god and praying, but i'd rather open my eyes to reality and see that no matter how we got here and how this world was made, we are all here. and all we have is each other. your neighbor, that girl that's a fool at school, that guy who pisses us off at work; they're all we have. and we have to love them and understand them. so that they can love and understand us.

i often hear god is love.
i disagree.
love is god.
love is the only thing that matters and the only thing that can save us from misery.

god works in mysterious ways?
love has reasons of which reason knows nothing [blaise pascal]
"god gave us free will"
love took it away. we so often do things for love that we would never choose logically.
they talk of god as a creator.
we were all created from love.
the scientist loved his experiment in a test tube. the rapist loved the moment of power he received, the drunken couple loved each other like they never thought possible, and the loving couple became one.
in that moment.


and if love is god, fear is satan.
not hate.
fear is what keeps us from getting close to and seeing each other how we really are deep inside and loving each other never the less.
fear.
of rejection.
of pain.
of the future.
of god.
of hell.
keeping us from loving one another.
from getting close.
from holding hands.
from sharing our feelings.
fear.

Love cures people-- both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it.
~Dr. Karl Menninger

Forgive yourself. Forgive others. Don't wait.
Love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone.
Love always wins.
Death may end a life, but not a relationship.
~ Morrie Schwartz

love eachother or perish
~tuesdays with morrie